Update

Well, I'm not so sure about the success of my diet. After my last update, I had two cheat meals, and all progress was immediately lost! I was back up to 133. And now after a weekend of eating out out of town, I am still there. I haven't measured, but I'm sure it's worse. So basically I lost about 4 weeks!

I did lose on it, but what good is that if it all comes back the second I eat some actual food?

I'm feeling pretty crappy about myself. I have to get that under control because only I can be in control of that. And my boobs...well they are pretty much As now. That is depressing! I can get skinny and be happy about my body, but then what will happen to them. This is my first Rodeo...maybe they will come back a bit??

I'm on a quest for happiness. Ha. I am happy in every other aspect of life...just not my self image. I think I'll journal and maybe find a good book for that sort of thing...and work out like crazy and diet!

Even with what I said before, I plan to start the Whole 30 up again. I am going to try to do the whole 30 days. That will end July 3, so I can enjoy a little cheat on the 4th. I am planning to stick with it 90% of the time. 100% will be near impossible and if I allow myself one cheat a week, I will be more likely to stick with it. At least I already know that it gives pretty drastic, immediate results, which is what I need to keep me going!

I am pretty close to my pre-pregnancy weight...and SO FAR AWAY from how I looked then and how I want to look! Aside from the weight, I have a lot of toning to do. Cambri and I went and checked out the gym daycare today and I will feel fine leaving her there for an hour 2 days a week. Power, here I come.

Tomorrow is my birthday, so I plan on starting the Whole 30 up on Wednesday. I will update a week from then!